22nd, The Last

How time really flies, it's the last day of 2014 already. Well, Einstein's surely true in relativity theory, somehow I feel time really flies, but on the other side, I feel like I've been through a long long journey for this year. First thing first, I wanna congratulate myself (like really, hahax) for achieving all of my resolutions that I made at the first post of this year! I bet I won't achieve all of them without God's help =) Yes, I went to Jogja, I had done my thesis and had the first convention, and I finished the Bible this afternoon!

This year is a ..... how to say it, really a twist for me. Started from I entered the Auditing concentration classes, which made me very excited back then. Then I joined NAO with Yulie and CT and surprisingly and miraculously passed to the semifinal (this one is really a miracle XD). I went to Jogja and had very fun trips with my buddy, and I still miss those trips till today. I had also done with my thesis (skripsi) and became the first person who had his first convention. The very last excitement was my birthday celebration with Wenny, that was a crazy one XD

Those are the nice parts, the bad parts also somehow made me sad. Several months ago my family had financial difficulties, which quite shook my family a lil' bit. Hmm, the saddest one is .... I lost him as my buddy. Yeah, I even dunno how to determine his status, neither a best friend, nor an acquaintance. I just really dun care anymore with his life, and I just talk to him as my colleague only.

2014 had also forced me to be a man, because now I sometimes replace my father when he has to go to Pekanbaru, and I have a job now, even I've got one new job for next year. But thanks God, for He has always strengthened me every day. Well, for 2015 resolutions, maybe I'll keep it for the next post, hahax XD I've thought some of them, and maybe they are cliche resolutions for all of us.

Last but not the least, I'd like to thank God, my family, buddies, friends, lecturers, and other people who have involved themselves in my life. I'm grateful with my life and always will be =) 

How I Wish It Never Existed

Hello, left this blog for several weeks. Now, I'm currently employed by my friend for her new business. Since I have accepted this offer, I'm quite pressured by this source of all problems, which is 'money'. Why do I say that I'm pressured of it? First, the very basic thing of every work/job is the salary. My parents keep on asking me whether I've talked about this with my friend. I just keep on reassuring them that I'll talk about it with my friend, although there's still no agreement between us till today. Second thing is that I have to face my 'once-considered-bestfriend', who has changed because of it. It's heartbreaking every time they talk about him, and when I told them the real truth of him. I've promised that I won't care about him again, but I'm too naive that I still pray for him every night. My mood will suddenly change when his name is mentioned. Third reason is that one of my friends who is also employed by this friend, said to me about the certainty of our salary. I just kept silent when she talked about it (You, who probably read this blog and know the person, just don't tell her anything about this). I hate it, why does money cause many problems in humanity? I don't say that I don't need money, but how it causes many problems, even makes friendships broken into pieces, makes me wish for it never existed.

I hate when I should think of money, although I know that God always blesses me everyday. I've ever passed the hard times, and I can pass it, that is because I try to let all things handled by Him. How I wish I didn't have to think of money and just believe that Him would take care of me just like He takes care all animals and plants. But I do believe one thing, if someone can't pay back my good deeds, then God will repay me in Heaven. So, there's still joy although some people don't pay back my good deeds =)

I'm Feeling 22!

Yeah, it's one of Taylor Swift's songs. Yesterday, me and Wenny turned to 22! So, actually I didn't expect anything this time, since everybody is very busy nowadays. Got the first birthday greetings from my buddy E from the conventional text messaging, hahax XD Well, as usual, the only one in my family who will remember my birthday is my sis, so she said the greetings through an Instagram post. Now I'll tell the almost-fail-and-expected surprise for me and Wenny yesterday XD

So, here's a friend named Jesslyn who is an old friend of mine from JHS till first year of SHS. Actually she was also in the same class with me in college, but only until the 2nd semester, before she moved to NZ to continue her studies. And after she got her Diploma from NZ, she moved back to Medan and continue to get the Bachelor degree this year. She is having her Entrepreneurship project, which is a quite troublesome project for every student, hahax. So she asked for my help on Friday on her financial plan. So, I helped her and luckily the mistakes were not that fatal. And on that day also, she again asked for my help for another financial plan component. I told her to just send the files again so that I could help her. But strangely, she asked for a dinner because she wanted to learn how to do the ones that she couldn't do. At that time I just felt weird, that was so unusual of her and I thought that she was a very busy person since she's also working. But, I put aside that feeling and agreed to her offer. 

Before I went to the place that we had agreed on, I fetched my mom to Cambridge and wait for her with my sis for almost 3 hours. I was afraid that I would be late. But after I had fetched my mom and sis home, I phoned her to ask whether she was on the way or not. She said that she was still on the way to fetch her sis, then after that, she would go to the place. Then I said okay and decided to take a bath. Actually, I was very tired at that time like I wanna cancel this meeting, but then I couldn't be that rude to cancel at the last minute. Around 7.30 pm, I decided to go to that place. When I called her, she said that she was also on the way to the place, which was another thing to be considered as weird, hahax XD When I was already in front of Sun Plaza, she called me again that she had arrived. Well, another weird signal, she arrived faster that I'd expected. When I had arrived, I looked around to find her and then I saw her sitting alone... On the day before, she said that she would be with her friend, but I thought that maybe her friends hadn't arrived yet. So, she opened the file and asked me to see the wrong part. I corrected some parts of it. I ordered drink first and then my food after a while. I was late for my dinner, so I thought that I wouldn't eat that much. 

Suddenly, Jowi came and pulled my hand forcely to follow her. At that time, I had known what they were planning, hahax. So, I just followed her and found out there were also others. They are Randy, Wilson, suddenly saw Wenny too, then Willianto, Carissa, Yulie, Virgo, and Jesslyn had already at that room == Wenny and I were so speechless that we were very awkward as many people saw us at that time. They had even set a table with mini cakes and the 22 candles also the balloons! Then they lighted up the candle, took several (actually too many) photos of the two of us XD We sang 'Happy Birthday' song then we made wishes before we blew the candles. We laughed a lot, chit-chat for a lil' while, suddenly, Wenny's bf came with another cake for her. So we sang another 'Happy Birthday' song for Wenny, and the others did another photoshoot of them. We continued our laughs and chats while ordering for foods and drinks. About 10 pm, Wisely and Sally came and said 'Happy Birthday' to us. We took many photos and played with the balloons, especially the duck one, hahax. We left that place at around 11 pm, which was quite late for my mom's time. 

Haah, never expect such things would happen. Actually, there were many flaws in their plan, hahax. First, I could be very late because of my mom. Second, I could walk to the another way where they had prepared the surprises. Third, I should have heard that the waiter said that our bill (the table which me and Jess sat) were combined with the table that they had used to prepare the surprise. Actually I heard the waiter said the combine things, but I didn't hear about their table, hahax. Y ME SO DEAF? In the end, it was a funny surprise, and I was so and still grateful for their willingness to celebrate our birthday =) Thank you God, thank you friends, as maybe this will be the last birthday celebration before I .... haah, dun wanna write it here before the day comes :')

Last Two Step to the End

Goodbye to the month of sorrow and hello to my month! Well, I was planning to post something on the 1st, but ended up with forgetting it till today. Yeah, I had my skripsi proposal convention on the 1st November, in other words, the first challenge of the month. That day was quite a tiring day. I was the first person (what I mean is the FIRST person in my batch) that would have the skripsi proposal convention. 

I arrived at the campus around 9.40 am and quite surprised with the students who wore my campus blazer. I thought that those were the ones who would join my convention. Phew, my thought was wrong and they were the juniors who wanted to attend the Nationality class. When I arrived at the convention class, I saw CT had arrived there. Wow, so fast, hahax. I prepared my things for the convention and had the first obstacle: the projector didn't connect with the computer. Then I asked the CS to call the IT staff to fix it. Fortunately, it could connect to the computer. At that time, the duo Jessica arrived dunno whether as the supporters or as the witnesses of my awkwardness when I answered the examiners. After some minutes, the projector didn't connect with the computer again. My advisor had arrived at that time, and still I got another obstacle == Then I asked the CS again, but she said I'd better move to another class. I ran again to the lecturers' office to ask my advisor whether we could move to another class. She approved then I ran to the CS to take the remotes for classes. I entered 4-1 and everything was alright till I found out that the projector couldn't be swung down. I was like OMG and I moved to 4-2 and another problem was that class' computer had no CPU. I was frustrated with my campus condition! I ran (again and again) to the lecturers' office to ask my advisor for the solution. She said that that projector at 4-1 could be swung down, just asked the IT staff to handle it. Then, for God's sake, I dunno how many times I ran, I ran again to the class to prepare it for the convention, then walked (I was tired already even before the convention) to the front office to ask the CS to call the IT staff to fix the projector. At that time my first examiner had arrived also. The last thing to do was move my bag and all of the things I brought to that class. At last I could sit and calm myself down. Around 10.45 (which was 45 minutes late), the second examiner arrived at 4-1 and in several minutes my advisor and the first examiner entered the class. I was like, okay, this is it!

I gave each of them a yellow map which each consisted of some forms for skripsi proposal convention and my skripsi proposal. The convention began with my advisor greetings as the moderator of the convention. Then I began my presentation which maybe last for only 15 mins. After that, the first examiner asked questions to me. Well, I was very surprised by her questions, which was quite hard for me to answer. Not only that, she checkmated me and I just could laugh with people inside the class, hahax XD I dunno why she was so interested with my topic and asked me for about 20 mins till I told her that the second examiner wanted to sleep already, hahax. Actually she still wanted to asked me, but then she realized that she asked for too many questions and let the second examiner to ask me. The second examiner was not a problem to me, she just asked things that I should add to my skripsi, and she asked for 5 mins only. Then my advisor asked me to go out for a while because they wanted to calculate the score of my proposal convention. I was dehydrated so much because of the first examiner, hahax. After several minutes, the advisor asked me to come in again and announced that my score was 93.7! At that time I dunno why I didn't feel excited at all, maybe because I was tired already. Then CT continued for her convention as well, guess what, her convention was about 30 mins only == 

The duo Jessica and some other friends were quite shocked with the first examiner's questions that almost beat me down, hahax. I nagged to JW so much after I had my convention while watching CT's convention. But seriously, I had a severe headache after that convention, too much thinking I guess, hahax. So, I decided to sleep to celebrate my post-proposal convention. I just want to thank God for His grace, I know I couldn't do it without His help =) To be honest, I feel like it was not me who passed that convention, like someone acted in behalf of me and I was just watching my outer-self doing all of that. I even didn't feel nervous for that convention, and I laughed a lot XD The second examiner felt weird and asked why I was so happy, hahax. Yeah, I can relax for at least until the end of this year, and start to deal with this again next year. Maybe I'll prepare myself for another competition at UI next January. My friends keep on asking me for the proposal convention experience, and maybe I've told this story for 3-4 times already == I know they can pass it also =)

Thank you God, my parents, and my buddies who have prayed for me. Left the last step, which is the final convention, then after that, a real goodbye for undergraduate life =)

The One Who (Maybe) Never Knows This Blog

Has been a week since our first serious so-called-quarrel. I just feel like I'm a stupid person by starting that thing, but thanks to that also I know how serious you are in our friendship. Actually, you are not that serious anymore, and you don't even try to fix it and feels like everything is okay. You said that you understand my position, but how wrong you are my friend, you don't understand at all. I didn't know why I could feel very sad on Monday, maybe I was so stupid and naive to think that our friendship can be like me with his. Yeah, my stupid expectation. As I've told all of these things to Him, slowly but sure, I feel better each day, and try to let it go. If this is what it's supposed to be, then let it be. I just dun wanna expect anything from you anymore. You've changed. A lot. It's not the '3-years-before-you' anymore. The thing is that we just don't understand each other anymore. If someday I meet you again, I really dunno what to talk/share to you. You know, it's worse than meeting a new person. Maybe just a silence that all I can show you.

Today, I met them, and talked about this thing. Maybe what she said is right, you are the person that will completely adapt and become the person you are close with at a particular time. Seriously, maybe we dun have to meet for some time, I dunno until when. Maybe till the day I feel like this thing never happened between us. You are just lucky to have such a naive friend, my buddy =) I still see you as one of my buddies, but now it's not the used-to-be buddy again. Will always pray for your life, buddy =)

The Bible said that we shouldn't be discouraged, but now how I feel the deepest discourage about our friendship. God, is the One who can change both of our hearts.

You, the Pain of My Heart

I really dunno what did happen to you these days or what's gotten into you. In all of a sudden you're just like a person with autism, dun want to speak even a word. Three of us can't find the answer of your condition until now. He is going to another city today and you dun even say "Safe flight" to him. What do you want actually? You keep on shutting your mouth and you hope that we can know what you want? You think we're mind readers? You're supposed to be a mature person now, but you act like a 5-year-old child. You think we deserve something like this from you? I will strongly disagree with that. I should be the person who act like you if I want to. I wonder whether there are any moms like you. Do you even know how my life is? Do you even care my problems? Where are your support when I'll have a competition or test? Don't be curious on why I suddenly become this quiet person in this "home". It's you who never bother about my life and what I've been through. It's a pain to love you, I really dunno how to bear with it. You know what? I've been trying on never share my problems with you and him, it's because I know that both of you also have many problems in your life, but seems like you never know about that and you just keep on nagging and nagging without even try to understand me. This is why I always want to live separately from you. I dare to bet that when it happens, you won't call me every day like you do every day with him. Only because that you are the one that I should respect, protect and take care of, I try to struggle all of these times. I dare to bet if you read this and understand it, you won't apologize or change yourself. It's because you never do that.

God, I just hope that all things can go back to where they used to be. Please strengthen me, God. This too shall be passed...

Can't Understand

I dunno, why I am this emo. Maybe because I have buried it for months and today it comes up once and for all. I just can't understand guys, I know that all of you are very busy, meanwhile I'm just a pathectic jobless guy, but is it logical that each of you doesn't have the same free time in 4 months? Is it just a coincidence that every time I ask for a gathering and you guys can't make it? Is it too hard to let your works/studies activities stop for just a quarter of a day? Is it so hard to have a day just for 4 of us? I dunno, I really hope my thought is wrong, but I feel like this group (even dunno it is appropriate to call it so) is not important at all for you guys. It can be seen how easily we'll cancel our gathering even we've talked about it two days before. If you feel like what I thought, then I won't struggle for this group anymore. It's not like I'm the person with unlimited patience, I also can't bear with repeated disappointments. I dare to bet that no one will ask for a gathering in half of a year. If you read this, please feel free to judge me. I'm not a perfect person anyway...

It's Alright

When you don't have much time to have a chat with me,

it's alright...

 

When you said you will contact me at a particular time, but you forget,

it's alright...

 

When you said sorry for being lost for some time,

it's alright...

 

When I feel like I really need to talk to you, but it looks like you are too busy,

it's alright...

 

When I feel like kinda disappointed of your forgotten promise,

it's alright...

 

When I hear you say sorry because we have lost contact for same time,

it's alright...

 

Although what I always feel are sad, disappointment, even hurt sometimes, it's alright for me.

 

You and I should thank God for His encouragement and strength that He has given to me to repel all of those negative feelings and thoughts.

 

Actually, I have a really obvious reason to get mad just like three years ago, but I just can't do that anymore. I have to be mature now, I understand how your conditions are and your character is. Dunno, I just can forgive you easily, because you are my 'brother', my brother in Christ =) If this is meant to be like this, then let it be. Because this life is not about myself, this life is about Him.

 

In the end, my buddy, it's alright =)

Delivered Surprise

The past 3 days were the panic days for me. Yeah, I was planning on delivering the birthday present to my buddy, E. Actually I'd been preparing the present two weeks ago, everything was alright till the day I intended to deliver, which was two days before his birthday. I didn't know why I had the urge to deliver the present two days before, because at first I wanted to deliver it the day before. Then, I went to this more reliable delivery service company located not far from my home. I was quite optimistic that the present would be delivered in one day. All of my optimistic feeling suddenly went away as the staff rejected my package, as they couldn't take the risk of delivering such thing to a far place. I was very confused at that time, thinking of just giving it to his mom, but I refused to give up. I went to the less reliable delivery service company (many people said it) not far from the first delivery service company that I went. Fortunately the staff wanted to receive the package, and I asked her how many days that the package would arrive at Jogja. She said two days and I was like very grateful that I decided to deliver it two days before. She asked me whether I wanted to insurance the present and I said yes. She asked for the invoice and I was so stupid as I packed the invoice along with the present. Then, she opened my beautifully wrapped present with brute force and at that time I was like 'Oh my God, my piece of art!' T_T In the end, she wrapped it again with the ugliest wrap ever. She asked me again whether I wanted to pack the present inside a wooden box and I said yes again, to ensure that it was really safe till the destination. After signing the invoice and paid for the fee, that was the start of my worry till yesterday. Since that time, I kept tracking on the package whether it was delivered or not. Actually it was only manifested on that night. Then on 20th, I checked again in the morning and still it was still manifested. The internet connection was really bad and I couldn't check it again till next several hours, until I asked one of my friends to help me check it. It was already at Jakarta on 12 pm and I felt a lil' relieved. Then, I kept checking again and no new sign till I slept. The next morning, which was the D-day, I checked again and thanked God it was at Jogja already the night before. The last step was delivered it to him. At that morning, I phoned him to say 'Happy Birthday' and kinda made sad tone of not giving any surprises for him. Yesterday was the day that I couldn't do anything only because I thought of this thing. I kept on checking and checking and I also kept on asking his girlfriend whether he had received it or not. Haahh, that needed quite a lot of energy, and my worry of not delivered on time was emerging when the night came. The last check, which was on 9+ pm, the sign that I wanted to see the most appeared! It was delivered and.... it was not him that received it ._. Then, I asked for his girlfriend helped again to ask him who was the receiver. Actually he was the security of his home complex, then I told his girlfriend to tell him to take the package from the security. I thought that was the end of my worry. But you know what, it was not over yet. This morning, I read his girlfriend chat that last night was not the receiver's shift, so he hadn't received the package. So I asked her to tell him to go home early so that he could meet the person. And the very real good news came, her girlfriend chatted me that he had taken the package before he went to his uni and I felt relieved so so so so so much! Then, around 4 pm, he chatted me to say thank you for the present, he even took photos of the steps of opening the package (yeah ric, you have made a good tutorial XD). Praise God that he likes it so much. Hahh, I just told him how anxious I was during the delivery. I just wanna thank God that everything is alright and his girlfriend for being my intel, hahax. I also wanna thank my friend who wanna read all my nags. Once again, happy 21st birthday my buddy! I'm glad that you like the present =)

So this is the package, I joked to him that it was like a bomb package XD

Couples

So at last, my circle is full with couples. Just received this happy news from one of my buddies =) Well, I admit that I'm very happy and excited for her new relationship. Dunno why, it's her happiness but I feel very happy for her. Like the two-sided coin, deep down inside I also feel sad about myself. A chronic single. Hahax, that really suits me. People may encourage me to find one, but still, those reasons are strong barriers to be passed on. I'm still jobless, I'll move to another city (hopefully), and the most important one is I never fall in love with any girl that I've met. Sounds weird, and deserved to be laughed at, but those are the truth. What can I say? Haaah, still not the right timing I guess. God will give the best one to me, I believe that. Last but not the least, congratz and hope you and him will be long last =)

End of 3 Years Journey

Yesterday was the last day of my undergrad life. No more classes after this. Haah, how godspeed time flies. Have been studied for 3 years, 9 semesters. After this, we will be separated, will have our own path to another life. Quite sad for me, as we won't see each other in a class again. 

Well, I really have to thank God for these 3 years. I can say that I had such an amazing life in this campus, although most of the time I feel bored. Laughs, tears, angers, disappointments, gossips, happiness filled it beautifully. I can say I'm proud of being a part of my class, Boston, which I can also say is one of the best class in my batch. Many knowledge and experiences that I got in this class. I think that it's not a coincidence that I'm put in this class, it's His plan. Despite the good things that I've mentioned, of course this class also has its dark sides. I did ever hate some of my friends in this class, but I think this is one stage of many friendship stages that everyone must pass, and praise God now I can accept them =) Yeah, I'm also grateful of meeting many nice lecturers, who can be our friends besides sharing their knowledges. Although in the end I lost one of them, but I never regret that I ever meet and know him. Thank you my friends and my lecturers. There are too many stories that we have had and I've learnt many things from all of you :')

Concern

Heyho, currently have been busy with the business plan project and gonna end this semester, or I should say my undergrad study in 3 meetings. I'm still a lil' tired as I had an adventure at Tinggi Raja with my school mates on last Sunday. Well, my buddy has been going back to Jogja yesterday, after that Sunday trip. Hmm, I'm concerning about his intention to join that money game. My friends explained and indirectly persuaded him to join, and he was interested. I dunno, I have explained to him the reason why we shouldn't join that game last month when we met, but seems like he has forgot it. And you know what? A statement from one of my friend who has got the money gives a big support to me to not joining this kind of money game. The point is, he didn't get any benefit after spending money that he got from that game. This is what I want to warn my buddy, but seems like he knows only a lil' about this game. But what can I do? I can't force or restrict him on joining the game, it's his right to join. I just can pray for the best of him. I dun want to join that game, because I have read about it and known where the source of the income. The company never uses the participants' money to generate income. The money that each participant gets is from the new participants'. In other words, you owe people money. You use other people's money. And the most important thing, you can destroy someone's life when the game is over. It's a game, yet a game that has a potential to make people become crazy, greedy, or maybe the worst effect is the people who lost the money may commit suicide. Maybe people will judge that I'm stupid, that I'm too naive. But I can't let myself to destroy another person's life. It's just so wrong to me. I believe one thing, that to earn money, we have to work, and this is not a job, and you are not working in this game. I just can pray for the best of my buddy who decides to play this game...

Repeated Crisis

Well, these weeks have been the most boring weeks in my life. Almost got nothing to do everyday. My parents asked me to find a job, so I don't just sit at home everyday. But what? This is Medan, no part time jobs exist like in overseas. Most of the companies require the applicants to have at least D3/S1 degree. I can't think of any job that I can do.

Besides I have nothing to do, I almost become an anti-social person now. What I mean is ... maybe this sounds funny, but no one will contact me or only catch up with me if they don't need me. Yeah, even my buddies. I just wonder and still haven't got the answer why. Why am I always be the one who ask for their news? Why am I always be the one who starts a conversation? Am I meant nothing to them? Now I'm also quite lazy to ask them for hangouts, I dunno why I just wanna run away from all of my friends. Maybe I'm a boring person to them. Maybe I'm not a mainstream person. Sigh, so sorry for this nagging, this is what happened to me when such crisis happens again. Now I'm just focusing on my preparation for next year's enrollment exam. God, am still hoping for the best to happen.

Near End

Wow, time really flies. Have passed 3 weeks of this month and gonna enter a new month again. Yeah, as the time flies, so does my undergrad study. Left one month and there will be no more classes. I'll have my really last mid term test this Tuesday, which is Entrepreneurship. After that, I dunno when I'll have tests like these again. Gonna miss so many things from my undergrad study. Last week, I have finished my skripsi (thesis), and will present the result three weeks from now. So literally, I am super duper free now, as I've also done the operational plan of my group's business plan.

Well, thank God again for my straight A for last semester =) That research method lecturer gave A for most of us, only 1 person got B, and 1 person failed for this subject. I dunno what's got into her head, hahax XD 

He has come back to town since last week, and had one outing with him. Chat a lot with him, and also visited his house. He said he'll go back there next month, as he'll have his OSCE at the beginning of August. He'll finish his next semester on December, which is quite fast, hahax XD Guess will have another outing this Thursday with his gang. It will gonna be fun! =)

Dream Came True

Wow, a month without posting anything. I just had my dream came true! Actually, last week I had an amazing trip to Jogja. My team for NAO was one of the top 35 team that would continue to compete at UGM. So here is the story at Jogja!

We went to Jogja on 20 and had two flights. So we arrived around 9 pm and surprisingly, my buddy, E, fetched us with his gf and his buddy! I was so excited at that time when we were fetched XD So he drove us to our hotel and put our things for awhile. Then, we went for late dinner and we chose a place named House of Raminten. I thought that it was something to do with ramen, but I was totally wrong! All of the foods were Javanese foods. E and his buddy had to left us for awhile for a lil' business, so his gf accompanied us. We had lil' chit-chat while we were ordering the food. I ordered porridge at first, but I had to change my order to fried rice as the porridge was not available. Around an hour the two guys came and also ordered the food. I couldn't finish my food as I had 'the-air-comes-into-my-body' syndrome == We left that place around 12 and he fetched his gf and his buddy home. We arrived at hotel around 1 am. I couldn't sleep because of this syndrome and I had to give great applause to E for didn't know that I vomited several times that night. I myself also didn't know that I had my sleep or not == Around 6 am, all of us woke up and I just knew that it took a lot of effort for E to wake up, hahax XD He set some alarms and he snoozed several times for him to wake up. 

We had our breakfast and did some selfie, hahax. I chose chicken porridge and again I couldn't finish my breakfast because of my stomach. After the breakfast, he left us because he had lectures and had to give lectures on that day. I was supposed to have some sleep, but then I found myself couldn't sleep anymore, so I followed the girls to do some shopping at Malioboro. They bought many things and I only bought cheap t-shirts for my dad, my bro and myself, and sandals for my sis. My mom didn't want anything, so I didn't bought anything for her. We shopped till around 12 and we went back to hotel to put our shopping things. We went to Mal Malioboro to have our lunch there. Again, I couldn't eat even half of my meal == So, after that we went back to hotel and I took some medicine. Around 1.45, we took a taxi to FEB UGM. We arrived earlier and we were greeted by our LO. She was such a nice person I guess. We had to wait for 10 mins and after that our LO took us to the technical meeting room. The room was OMG, too beautiful and elegant. We were so 'SPK' that we didn't know how to bring out the table from the chair, that our LO had to demonstrate how to do that. The technical meeting went well and it was fun! We finished around 5 and we asked E whether he could fetch us or not. He could and we waited him for around 15 mins. We asked him to stop at the front gate of UGM to take some pics. We also take pics at UGM library. He was a brilliant tour guide for us. He explained every single thing that we saw XD After 'Introduction to UGM' tour, we decided to have our dinner. He fetched his gf first, then we went to the biggest plaza in Jogja, namely Ambarukkmo Plaza. The plaza was almost the same as Medan's. We chose XO Suki as our dinner place. Fortunately, I could eat well although I still couldn't eat as much as usual. We had lotsa chit-chats, laughs and also the funniest 'senam muka' of E XD CT took the pics when E did the 'senam muka' and his gf edited the pic. We laughed hardly on that photo XD We left that place around 8.30 and fetched his gf home. We arrived at hotel at 9.30 and I dunno what we did that we slept at 12 XD Maybe too many stories to be shared. We, the boys, woke up at 5.30 and the same alarms and snoozing things happened again.

So the boys finished at 6 and we were ready for the breakfast. E fetched us to FEB and we arrived there at 7, where we were considered almost late XD It was the competition day and our journey started here. We had our top 35 competition around 7.30 or 8. The first part of top 35 round was teamwork one. We had to finish 75 MCQs and 25 fill in the blanks questions in one hour. That was a very crucial situation. I myself dunno how many questions that we did. After that, we had around 30 mins break before the second part of top 35. This time, we were splitted and it was individual work. So we decided that I did the financial accounting questions, Yulie did the cost and management accounting questions, and CT did taxation and auditing questions. We only got 45 mins to finish 50 MCQs each person. After that, we had our break and lunch. My brain was like being pressured at that time == Around 1 pm the result was announced. They put the top 20 name on powerpoint slides. We didn't expect that we would pass when they announced 15-20th position. You know what? We were the 20th!!! XD So we continued to the next round, the top 20 round. The first part of top 20 was individual work, with 50 MCQs but this time, all subjects were included. After that, there was no break and we continued to the next part of top 20 round, which was estafet round. There was only 1 question with 3 subquestions. So the first person had 10 mins to do the subquestion a, then he/she had to pass the question and answer paper to the second person and that person had 10 mins also, and so on. So Yulie is the first person, CT the second, and me the third. The question was about cost accounting and I had no idea what the question was talking about. So I used my logic only to answer it and I corrected some of Yulie and CT's works. Then we had break again and waited for the announcement. This time, only 9 teams that would continue to semifinal. We didn't expect that we would pass. Then the miracle happened again. I myself had counted the 9 teams to semifinal, but then the last name came out, and it was our team!!!! It was very unbelivable and no one gave us applause. I guess everyone was shocked also XD Then we had technical meeting until 5.30 for the semifinal and final round. We were so happy and E fetched us again at 6. We went for dinner at pasta restaurant namely Dixie. We had selfie, laughs, chats again. He didn't sleep at my room that night, as he didn't bring his clothes. Three of us discussed about the debate material, who knows we passed the semifinal round XD We slept at 12 or 1 I guess. 

Again I woke up at 5.30 and ready at 6. So we had our breakfast and after that we went to FEB with taxi. Surprisingly, we were the first team that arrived. We waited until 7.30 for the first part of semifinal round. The first part was like 'Ranking 1' game. The questions were .... most of all were difficult. I only got 3 questions right out of 15 questions. Then the second round was even more hectic. We had to solve a puzzle first, after that we had to hunt for questions at the 6th, 7th, and 8th floor of Pertamina Tower. My team was the last team who solve the puzzle, and we got only 10 questions out of 180 questions. The other teams were very aggresive XD We decided to find the bonus question and go to the 'Declaration of Freedom' post. We were the 6th team that finished the game. The last round of semifinal was the same estafet round in top 20, the differences were there were 3 questions and 1 bonus question and each person could do all subquestions. The questions were too difficult. This time really, we didn't expect to pass again, and it became true. 2 of Trisakti teams and Univ Atmajaya Yogyakarta went to the final round. So the rest of the team watched them competed again in the same room as the technical meeting room. The debate was not that exciting, the next rounds were more exciting. The final was finished around 5.30 and this time E couldn't fetch us. So at the first place, we decided to call for taxi, and surprisingly not even one taxi was available. Then finally we called for E to fetch us, he was free after half and hour we were looking for taxi. So we walked to the front gate of UGM which were quite far from FEB. Then, he arrived and we went back to hotel to have a shower. We went to a place named Rumah Pohon for our dinner. The place was constructed with 100% bamboo! The food was nice and we decided to leave at 9. We went to Tugu Jogja first, as he said that if you haven't taken pic at Tugu Jogja, you aren't considered ever came to Jogja. He himself never takes pic at Tugu Jogja XD So the photoshoot session was a 'greget' one, where we had to wait the time it was secured to take pics. Just imagine you are in the middle of 4 sided-road XD After half an hour, we continued our journey to Alun-Alun Selatan/Kidul, where it was a famous place for LED bicycle and the myth that if you can walk pass in the middle of the two trees with closed eyes, your wishes will come true. So we decided to ride the LED bicycle. It was very very fun XD We took a lot of pics inside it. Then we decided to play that game. I was the first person, and my friends laughed at me a lot as I was walking at the same place XD CT was the second person. She walked to dunno what direction and we lied to her that she was so close XD Yulie was the third person and same thing happened to her. E was the last person, and you know what? He made it!!! So amazing, God showed His light to him XD Then we went back to hotel after so much fun there. I had chit-chat with E again until 1 am. 

We woke up at 5.30 again, and same thing happened as always. We were ready around 6.15. Today's agenda was Jogja Amazing Race. E didn't have anything to do, so he fetched us to FEB and we were kinda late again XD I was at the last group, group 20 with 4 girls and 2 boys including myself. Another boy was a Thai, and we could call him Kan, without 'h' XD It was hard to speak with him as he understands English only a lil' bit. So at first we need to find our LO for JAR. Even before the game had started, we had found our LO, named Luhur XD So all groups were directed to Grha Sabha Pramana for the opening ceremony of JAR, where the committee performed a dance with Timber song. We didn't understand at first, but actually after that all LO were running away and we had to find them. My group's was not that hard to find. So we had our first clue that we had to memorize several illogical verses to be tested. But before we were tested, we had to pass 5 layers of persons that would block us, and when I passed the last layer, I fell down == Great, I got some injury at the start of the game, fortunately it was not that bad. So we continued our mission and we had lotsa of fun! Although the sun shone very bright, my team was always in spirit till the end. We reward ourselves by taking a taxi back to UGM XD After that, we had a lunch and waited for other teams. An hour later, when all teams were back, E and his gf also came. We had a short chit-chats and we were asked by the committee to take a picture. E was very funny as he and one of the committee take pics of all of us. One of the participant said that he was having a selfie XD Then we also took some pics again after that photoshoot. He fetched us back to hotel and we had a shower and we were ready to go to Keraton. However, we were late that Keraton had been closed already, so we went to Tamansari and there was a guide for us. We took some pics and then he brought us to buy the famous Bakpia in Jogja. Around 5.30 he drove us to hotel as we had to prepare for the Gathering Night and his gf and him had to prepare themselves for Jazz Night. He then dropped us to FEB. There were not many people when we arrived but luckily we arrived earlier as we could take a photo at the so-called red carpet XD Well, the Gathering Night was not that fun I guess, and we had our dinner at 8+, when we were too hungry. We finished at 10 pm and actually E couldn't fetch us as the Jazz Night ended around 12. So again, we had to call for taxi and no taxi that were available. We walked again to the front gate of UGM and praise God that a taxi was passed by. So we took that taxi back to hotel and we had our rest. I took a bath one more time as Jogja was very hot even at night. I slept at around 1 pm. 

I woke up at 5.30 again and ready at 6. The girls were ready at 6.15. So we had done the packing before we slept and we had our breakfast. Then we did check out and waited for E to bring us for our last trip at Jogja. So he arrived around 7 and surprisingly there were his gf and his buddy. Our last trip was to Kaliurang, a highland. And we decided to take Lavatour, with two jeeps with three of us each jeep. I was in the same jeep with E and his gf, left the two girls and his buddy at another jeep. The trip was soooooooooooooooo fun. The driver was an excellent photographer and tour guide. We were grateful to choose this trip. Many photos were amazing! I was addicted and wanna try again the next time I go to Jogja XD We finished the tour around 11.30 and we had to be hurry to go to the,airport. We arrived around 12.15 and we said goodbyes. I was sad that this amazing trip had to be over =( Thank you to E for sacrificing your time for us and also your gf and your buddy =) So we arrived at Medan around 8.30 as we had an indirect delay. I arrived at home around 10 and was very tired.

Haaah, such an amazing trip. Thank you, God, thank you Jesus, as Your Grace for me never ends =) Am looking forward to join next year and decided to continue my professional degree at UGM =)

End of a Dream

Wow, left this blog for a month. A lot of things should have been shared. Let's see where do I start. Okay, let's talk about the Company Budgeting project, which was about selling something, and my group decided to sell sushi. Well, on the D day, it was a tough day, me and my friends had arrived at my friend's house around 8.30 am to prepare the stuffs needed to make the sushi. We still had our class on that day, and we managed to make about 20 packs and arrived at campus around 11.30 am, hahax XD When we arrived, luckily the lecturer didn't teach anything, so we could deliver our pre-order sushi to our customers. After that, we decided to buy some ingredients and our lunch before the second session of our so-called production. Then, around 1.30 pm we started to make the sushi again. That was the hours of our 'battle', all of us did our best for our sushi. We managed to make 80 more packs in 3 hours. We arrived at campus around 4.45 pm and started to sell our sushi. The drink group actually had started selling their drinks since 2.30 pm, and they were still selling when we arrived. Around one and one-half hour, our sushi was sold out! Praise God for that =) Then we helped the drink group to sell their drinks, and they sold all of them at 7 pm. The funny thing was that their tactics to market their products, from the 'supertrap' method to the 'seniority' method XD We were tired, but we had lotsa fun! We managed to make a profit of around 110k IDR for each person, such a great job I guess =)

What's more? Hmm, maybe about the Research Method things. The lecturer didn't come for the 11th meeting and she informed it on the day we had the class, oh damn. Then the next week, she suddenly made another session to 2 pm without our consent, and she asked us to do the final presentation of our proposal. That was a shocking day I guess. I presented my proposal on the second session, and luckily I got a slight correction from her. Then we submitted our work together to the customer service on Saturday that week. At last, we don't need to meet her anymore, I'm sooooooooooo grateful, hahax XD I dun care what grade that she will give to me, I'm just so glad that it's over!

Hmm, had been helping 'Purplelicious' these weeks for her business plan. Know what? That was the toughest real accounting thing that I ever did. The budgeting thingy seriously made me confused so much. Many assumptions that should be placed on. At first, I did a lot of manipulation inside so that the balance sheet would be balance, but then after some corrections that she told me and the checking that I did, I didn't have to manipulate anymore, it was balance by itself. I just wonder that will it be this hard when I make my own business plan next semester? But I'm so honored that she really put her trust on me, hahax, I tried my best to help her out from her own troubles XD She will present her business plan tomorrow, will pray for you =)

Oh yea, my bro came back to hometown two weeks ago. Well, not changed so much, but glad that he was okay. That week, we had a lotsa eating agenda, hahax XD I never thought that I could chat with him as much as I did when three of us hang out together =) My mom said that she won't ask him to come back to hometown again, as the journey is very tiring for him, just imagine, had thrice air journey and six hours land journey. I myself will feel very lazy to have such journeys.

Hmm, today was the last day of my last final test week in my undergrad study. Can't imagine that I won't have such final tests anymore at my campus. Today was the first and the last time I did my exam in 5 pm class, and it was such a crowded exam == My seat was at the very back of my class, and the students that sat around me were very noisy. Luckily I don't have to have things like this again. After the test, we (Auditing class minus Wenny) had our dinner with our lovely lecturer, Ms Deva, plus Ms Ika. At first, we planned to go to Nelayan, but when I just arrived and parked my car, suddenly my friend call me and said that we changed our dinner place to Lekker. Arrived there around 7.45 pm, and couldn't wait anymore to order the food, because I was very hungry == Had such a great time with my lecturers, although they are married, they are still looked very young, and can be very close to us =) We took some (actually quite much XD) photos before we left the place, and Ms Deva treated us for the dinner. Thanks so much, miss =)

Haah, it was the end of the eighth semester, my dream semester. Gonna miss it so much, but not the Research Method part, hahax XD The semester where I learnt many new things before I left my campus. Now, I have to move on, to the essay competition and NAO. I decided to kick out that guy from my team from NAO and recruit CT. I can't stand with his attitude, and I think I can't work together with this selfish and annoying guy. I'll register my team by tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I guess. I also decided to do a new thing, guess what? =) I'll post it when I really do it. 

Today was the third year anniversary of my buddy's (WE) relationship with her girlfriend. Happy for both of you, hope that your relationship will last long =) Hmm, wondering how is his condition there? Not catching his news for about two months, but seems like everything is fine, will always pray for his best =) 

Sky and Earth

Yesterday was a big day for my buddy, E, as his team got the first place for SIMPIC 2014, an international competition. I was, and am still proud of him and his team =) This is a very amazing achievement, not only for his family, friends, and campus, but also for Indonesia! I've prayed for him for a month and God led his team to the first place. Congratulations, buddy! =)

Today is my turn to join a competition, an accounting competition at my ex-uni. Well, I even didn't pass the first round, got 18th place meanwhile they only took 10 people for the next round. Many participants had the same score, and that's why I was in that position. My friend, the Earth God, made it to the second round, but then he failed to advance to the final round. Well, it was not that I'm disappointed because of this, as I had prepared myself for less than 1 week. It would be unfair for them who had prepared themselves for a longer time than me. But I'm sad because I couldn't follow my buddy's success. Sad because he won an international competition, meanwhile me who even couldn't pass the first round of a local competition =( Haaah, I had done my best and let God do the rest. If this is what He wants, what can I say? No worries, still can join competitions from UGM. Let's keep spirit on it!

Lose Our Grip

Hmm, have been thinking this thing lately. Actually it's about the buddy that I got during the last year of SHS. Yeah, him. I was kinda surprised last Sunday when we had KoO hangout, where I could lose topics to be talked to when there were only two of us. I was afraid when the two girls left us. Afraid of the silence that occurred because of no topic to be talked of. And it happened. Since we've graduated from SHS, we rarely kept on each other's news, as he is always busy, yeah ALWAYS busy. I used to catch up with his news, but I thought that it might disturb him a lot, so I stop it. We have really lost our grip, the pace that we used to keep on. We have lost the way we share to each other. I dunno, he sees me as his best friend, so do I, but I dunno what is the level of his best friend parameter. Or is it me who just expect too high from him? I also dunno how he values a friendship, does he really mean that 'best friend' word? Know what? I feel that we are just an acquiantance now, I just dunno him anymore, despite his activities only. It's tired to struggle alone, but again, I can't let go my precious friend. Well buddy, I do really hope someday we can be the 'used to be us'...

Am I Stupid?

Hey, literally at half of my semester already, some of them still in week 5. My days are spent with homeworks mostly from EDP Audit and Research Methodology, and I'll present my case for the seminar this Thursday. Hopefully I can do it well. My days in this semester is full of the thesis thingy. My friends are keep 'galau'-ing about the problems their researches, and asking for my help. I myself dunno why mine doesn't have many problems as theirs, or maybe I just haven't found it. I try my best to help them, and seems like I'm also confused with their problems, hahax XD

Well, I decided to join two competitions from GMAD 2014, which are the essay writing competition and the National Accounting Olympiad. For the essay writing competition, I pair with Yulie, and for NAO, because a team consists of 3 persons, me and Yulie needs to find one more person. Alas, my head offered that person. He is the most annoying and 'kiasu' person in Yulie's class. So, yesterday I asked him whether he wanna join my team or not, and my intention was to make him cancelled to join. But then his words were so 'lebay' that I wanna laugh and my pressure to him was fail. I prayed to God last night and the answer is he joins my team. I dunno whether I'm stupid or not to let him join my team, but then I need to be objective, and I see his spirit in it. I'm just afraid that this person can change his mind and do those annoying things during the competition. Haaah, I dunno, I just think that this is what God wants, as I prayed for it last night. Just give the rest to Him, and I'm grateful that I can join both competition, as I have the chance to go to Jogja =)

Long Holiday Thoughts

So now I'm having quite long holiday, literally a week, but actually it's 10 days, as I dun have any Friday classes this semester. First of all, Happy Chinese New Year, everyone! Not very excited this time, dunno why. It was just very different this year, maybe because my grandma had passed away and my bro didn't come back to hometown. It was just, very silent this time. 

Hmm, having a long holiday makes me keep thinking of several things. This is also due to no workload at all for this holiday. I just spent my days reading 'The Kite Runner' novel, watching the online courses video, watching TV, playing PC games sometimes, and online-ing most of the time. Well, in the past months, I dunno why I lost the urge to reach my dream. It's just like I really give the rest of my life to God. Maybe it's because after I read the 'Crazy Love' book and found out that this life is not about me, it's about Him. So, I feel like I have no right at all again to pursue what I want, I need to pursue what He wants. This leads me to not knowing or planning on what I should do after I graduate next year. If someone asks me what I'll do after I graduate, I just can answer with continuing my studies to accountant profession. After that? That's when people can 'checkmate' me, and fortunately no one has gone that far. I'm just losing the old 'planner' me. Now I even barely toplan on the overall week that I'll pass, I'll be very relax and only plan for maybe 3 days' ahead things. Maybe this is what it means to let God have my life, to leave the rest to Him, to not worry about anything.

In the past weeks I also felt very bored with my life. Dunno, I just wanna leave everything here and go to a new place and live a new life with new people. Or maybe a life that is devoted to God. Now I know why some people can leave everything they have to devote themselves to God. Maybe this is the trigger. I decided to continue my studies at UGM, hopefully it'll be come true.

Hmph, I told my father that I'll work started from this April, as I won't have any activity again at that time. I told him I'll help him in his company, but then he referred me to my cousin's company. His reasons were that his company won't grow very well and I'll have better chance at my cousin's company. I disagreed with his statement that his company won't grow well, every company of course can grow into a successful company, with good strategies to be applied on. But it has always been the way he restricted us to take care of his company. Maybe the thing that he'll do when he can't take care of his company is to liquidate it, not inherit it to his children. 

Last week I proposed an essay competition from UGM to the head. I told her that I wanna join and she let me join and it was approved by the Managing Director. I asked JW first whether she wanted to become my partner, but seems like she wasn't really interested. Then, I asked Yulie, and she wanted to be my partner. Yesterday, the information about the national accounting olympiad were released. I do hope that I can join this competition too, so I thought that I also will propose this competition to the head. Actually, this was already rejected by the Managing Director last year when the previous head proposed it, it was because the preliminary round system. However, it's not a mistake to try it again, maybe with this new head of accounting, the MD can change his mind. If he lets me to join, I'll cancel the essay competition and join NAO. But I need one more person to fill a team of three people, maybe a junior. Let's just pray that the best thing that will be happened.

Hmm, this time it was quite fun to hangout with him, except the second time. Maybe because of our mood also, at that time, we were not having the best condition, so we ended up in silence and staring at our gadgets. But I did grateful that we could still hangout together, and share many stories of our life. He's going back to Jogja tomorrow. Really dunno when he'll come back to hometown again, but life's full of surprise, isn't it? Maybe he'll come back in this year, maybe not at all. Just pray for the best of your life, buddy =) Oh yeah, also hope you can do your best for SIMPIC at March, make your family, buddies, friends, campus and Indonesia proud, okay? =D

Haah, enough with my thoughts. Hopefully everything will go on its way and God always lead me through His ways. I do always believe that His plans are always beautiful in His time =)

What to Do?

Hmph, realized that it is already the last two semester of my undergrad study, which means that I'll graduate in one year. Well, the things that make me worry is the time after I've graduated from my college. What to do? Continue my studies or find a job? It's really hard for me to decide, because all of them are still vague. If someone asks me what to do after I've graduated, the temporary answer that I can give is to continue to take the profession study. I just want to take that as I wanna work as public accountant, and I wanna take it at UGM. I still dunno my parents wanna let me go there or not, but I really hope they allow me to continue my studies there. It only takes a year, and one of the admission requirement is to take a test known as TVK (Tes Validasi Kemampuan). The subject that will be tested are Financial Accounting, Cost & Managerial Accounting, & Auditing, with 100 multiple choice questions in 3 hours. The hard thing here is that I dunno whether there are any syllabus for the materials that will be tested, as I can't find it on the web. Just now I saw the announcement of TVK, surprisingly only 1 person from 48 people who passed all three subjects, the rest they have to join the matriculation class. Judging from the result, I assume that the test is difficult =( Hmph, dunno whether I can achieve it or not. Haah, just leave the rest to Him...

New Year, New Busy Activities

Hello, have left the blog for 3 weeks already. So the first thing that I'd like to say although it's too late already is "Happy New Year 2014!" XD 

Well, lotsa things happened these three weeks. First thing is maybe the new semester. Yeah, I'm in 8th semester already, and am so excited with it, because I'm entering the Auditing concentration class! The subjects are quite challenging this time. EDP Audit, where we learn how to audit a company, with its amazingly beautiful copy books XD Audit Quality Management, which is a very technical subject where we learn how to make an audit quailified. Audit Seminar, where we should present case study that has been given to us. The workload of this semester is surely high, other two subjects, which are Company Budgeting which has no workload till now and Research Methodology, which gives lots of workload from the first week, are subjects which are still held in morning class. The 'trending topic' of this semester is about the thesis or 'skripsi', as we have Research Methodology in which we learn how to make thesis. Thanks God that I already have the title of my thesis, which is "The Internal Control Analysis of Credit Sales and Cash Receipts Transactions". Now we are still struggling with these workloads every week. The beginning of this semester reminded me of the first time my school friends and me entered the Science/Social class, where we were visiting each other's classes. It were happened too at my campus XD

The second thing is maybe about last semester's final results. Really thank God for His blessings to me O:) Yesterday I just knew the last subject that hadn't been posted, and I got straight A again for last semester XD I know I couldn't do it without His grace =) I also learnt that, I can let all things to Him and keep believing that everything is beautiful in His time.

The third thing is my resolutions for this year. Hmm, first thing first is I'm taking the challenge to finish the Bible in this year, hopefully I can achieve it =) The second thing is I wanna my thesis to be finished and have the first convention this year. The last one is I wanna go to Jogja!!! XD

The last thing is that he's coming back to town last week. I've met him last Wednesday, then on Saturday again. This person has his life back again XD Will hangout with him again tomorrow, hopefully everything will be going well =)