Lose Our Grip

Hmm, have been thinking this thing lately. Actually it's about the buddy that I got during the last year of SHS. Yeah, him. I was kinda surprised last Sunday when we had KoO hangout, where I could lose topics to be talked to when there were only two of us. I was afraid when the two girls left us. Afraid of the silence that occurred because of no topic to be talked of. And it happened. Since we've graduated from SHS, we rarely kept on each other's news, as he is always busy, yeah ALWAYS busy. I used to catch up with his news, but I thought that it might disturb him a lot, so I stop it. We have really lost our grip, the pace that we used to keep on. We have lost the way we share to each other. I dunno, he sees me as his best friend, so do I, but I dunno what is the level of his best friend parameter. Or is it me who just expect too high from him? I also dunno how he values a friendship, does he really mean that 'best friend' word? Know what? I feel that we are just an acquiantance now, I just dunno him anymore, despite his activities only. It's tired to struggle alone, but again, I can't let go my precious friend. Well buddy, I do really hope someday we can be the 'used to be us'...