22nd, The Last

How time really flies, it's the last day of 2014 already. Well, Einstein's surely true in relativity theory, somehow I feel time really flies, but on the other side, I feel like I've been through a long long journey for this year. First thing first, I wanna congratulate myself (like really, hahax) for achieving all of my resolutions that I made at the first post of this year! I bet I won't achieve all of them without God's help =) Yes, I went to Jogja, I had done my thesis and had the first convention, and I finished the Bible this afternoon!

This year is a ..... how to say it, really a twist for me. Started from I entered the Auditing concentration classes, which made me very excited back then. Then I joined NAO with Yulie and CT and surprisingly and miraculously passed to the semifinal (this one is really a miracle XD). I went to Jogja and had very fun trips with my buddy, and I still miss those trips till today. I had also done with my thesis (skripsi) and became the first person who had his first convention. The very last excitement was my birthday celebration with Wenny, that was a crazy one XD

Those are the nice parts, the bad parts also somehow made me sad. Several months ago my family had financial difficulties, which quite shook my family a lil' bit. Hmm, the saddest one is .... I lost him as my buddy. Yeah, I even dunno how to determine his status, neither a best friend, nor an acquaintance. I just really dun care anymore with his life, and I just talk to him as my colleague only.

2014 had also forced me to be a man, because now I sometimes replace my father when he has to go to Pekanbaru, and I have a job now, even I've got one new job for next year. But thanks God, for He has always strengthened me every day. Well, for 2015 resolutions, maybe I'll keep it for the next post, hahax XD I've thought some of them, and maybe they are cliche resolutions for all of us.

Last but not the least, I'd like to thank God, my family, buddies, friends, lecturers, and other people who have involved themselves in my life. I'm grateful with my life and always will be =) 

How I Wish It Never Existed

Hello, left this blog for several weeks. Now, I'm currently employed by my friend for her new business. Since I have accepted this offer, I'm quite pressured by this source of all problems, which is 'money'. Why do I say that I'm pressured of it? First, the very basic thing of every work/job is the salary. My parents keep on asking me whether I've talked about this with my friend. I just keep on reassuring them that I'll talk about it with my friend, although there's still no agreement between us till today. Second thing is that I have to face my 'once-considered-bestfriend', who has changed because of it. It's heartbreaking every time they talk about him, and when I told them the real truth of him. I've promised that I won't care about him again, but I'm too naive that I still pray for him every night. My mood will suddenly change when his name is mentioned. Third reason is that one of my friends who is also employed by this friend, said to me about the certainty of our salary. I just kept silent when she talked about it (You, who probably read this blog and know the person, just don't tell her anything about this). I hate it, why does money cause many problems in humanity? I don't say that I don't need money, but how it causes many problems, even makes friendships broken into pieces, makes me wish for it never existed.

I hate when I should think of money, although I know that God always blesses me everyday. I've ever passed the hard times, and I can pass it, that is because I try to let all things handled by Him. How I wish I didn't have to think of money and just believe that Him would take care of me just like He takes care all animals and plants. But I do believe one thing, if someone can't pay back my good deeds, then God will repay me in Heaven. So, there's still joy although some people don't pay back my good deeds =)