Amazing Year

So, it's the end of 2013. What have I gone through? So many I think. The first time I was chosen by my ex-head to join an accounting competition. Although it was cancelled, but I was honored could be chosen because I bet there were many other seniors that are better than me. I also could meet nice seniors back then. Then, I also had the experience to manage my class to hold an event as the final project of OB, and it turned to be a success event I think. Because of it, I know that it's not an easy thing to hold an event and so many things needed to be considered.

Another one might be I was accepted as the main member of KJAI and accepted as the Auditing team program staff. I was so happy, because I didn't expect to be accepted. Then, I could meet nice friends at Jakarta although in the end, I quitted as the main member.

In friendship things, this year is the year of boosted friendship I must say. The year where King of Opera is created. The year where my friendship with E is growing well. The year where Trio Chubby at last has a group chat at Whatsapp. I must say that all of them could be happened because of His grace that allows me to drive. I never imagine that my friendships with them can be that amazing this year. I never imagine that I could cry for his sadness. I never imagine that I could celebrate Christmas at church with Trio Chubby. I never imagine that eventhough they are busy, we could still hang out together.

About my faith to God, I really thank God for His grace and eternal love, as now I read the daily bread, pray and I wanna read Bible starting from next year. Day by day, slowly I learn to take His commands. I also feel that my life is getting better, and so does my family. All thanks to Vutet also, she helped me a lot.

Thank you God, for allowing me to pass such an amazing year. Despite the sad part, I think this year is one of the best years in my life. I have grown so much. Your love, Your faithfulness, Your grace will never stop. I hope that next year will become another amazing year. God bless =)

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Hard Slap

Well hello, Merry Christmas everyone! =) So happy that this year I could celebrate Christmas with Trio Chubby and thanks to Yulie for informing me and reserving seats for us =) Another blessing again, Vutet gave me and Wenny a book for each of us, about Christianity. Me got 'Crazy Love' by Francis Chan, which is actually I want to borrow from her this holiday, but she decided to give it to me although she hasn't finished reading the book. Thanks Vut for the book =)

Actually I've read the first and second chapter of the book, but I decided to read it from the beginning again to refresh my memories about what I've already read. This book is very amazing I guess, open up and correct all my perspective about Christian life. And there's a chapter, about the profile of lukewarm people. Hah, I just felt like being slapped hardly when I read about that chapter. I realized that I'm still very far far far far far far far far away from what God wants me to do. I felt like I'm the most useless human being that He ever created. However, He always loves me, and always will be. I wanna learn, slowly but sure to love Him unconditionally. I wanna learn, to devote myself to Him. I don't want to be a lukewarm person, partially committed to Him. My feeling was overwhelmed nonstop when I read the book, like there was a war inside it. I wanna talk a lot to Him tonight...

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Friendship

Today, seems like God kept on letting me see and telling me things about friendship. From the daily bread, my friend's post on Instagram, my buddy's friend blog, and TV show. I dunno what do all of things mean. Several thoughts were in my head today. First, about my college friends. I just dunno and still feel skeptic about them. Usually it's me who makes somebody into my best friend first, then the person will admit it after some time. But this time, the other way round happened. She made me her best friend, while I'm not, I just feel like we're close friend. I just don't have that feeling as I make my buddies my best friend. Am I a bad person? I just feel ordinary about our friendship, and I also dunno how she defines best friend. The second thing is that from my buddy's friend blog. Well, he is Christian also and he really devotes himself to God. That was what I could say after I read the blog posts. The interesting point is that this person has the same thing as me, love buddies so much, of course the love that cares like siblings. However, his is more extreme than mine. I think that I'm the one who is abnormal for caring buddies too much, even more than my siblings, but there is another person who is more extreme than me. And the last one is from the reality show in TV. Well, I must say that duo's friendship is a true friendship. They really care to each other, cry and laugh together. It made me remembered of what happened to me when my buddy had 'that' problem. I really hope that my friendship with him is a true one, based on God's love. So much lesson about friendship today, thank you God =)

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Beginning of an End?

Wow, left this blog for half of month. Yeah, quite busy for my final things and I'm sooooooooo glad that I've passed this semester. Bye semester 7, won't miss you for sure XD

Well, after his problem, I had a problem a week after his. Yeah, it was about the community that I'd joined. At that Saturday, the director asked for our confirmation whether we would attend the birthday event or not. Then, I texted him to inform him that I wouldn't go, as I would have my final on those days. The director's reply wasn't that nice, but I just thought it wasn't a problem. He told me that there would be an assignment and I could accept it. The thing that made me so disappointed was the director's tweets. He retweeted news about Jakarta's vice governor and tweeted things that opposed him. Not only that, he wrote 'CINA' in his tweet. I couldn't believe that he could be a racist person. It was such a waste, an intellectual person yet racist. The climax was he teased us who wouldn't attend at Whatsapp group, he said that we couldn't go because of the assignment that he would give. At that time, I decided to resign from this community. Many things convinced me to resign. First, the program for each department doesn't run at all, only the 'kultweet' that is being run. Then, the articles that he asked us to write are nowhere, and he also asked us to collect our mid paper questions, but no news at all until today. Seems like it's out of its real intention already. Only if there is an event, then this community is very active. I just wanna ask, is it our fault if we can't attend the event? Our reason was reasonable, we were having our final! Not only that, he seemed like indirectly forcing us to attend the event, does he think that all of us had the money to go there? Why didn't he discuss about the date first? If he thinks that he can act at his own all of the time, then forget it, I just can't stand with person like this. This is a community, not a company.

So, today I decided to send email with my resignation letter attachment in it to the director. No hard feelings, because I'd prayed for this decision for 2 weeks. And God really answered my prayer. I texted him and he just said that he already checked it, only that. It was good that there was no attempt from him to say something like 'Please don't leave'. The one who was very sad was my manager. She was kinda shock I think. Yeah, this is my decision already, there is no need for me to be in this community. The reasons that I told them were I have to handle my family business and need to focus on my thesis. I also added some 'spices' in my letter, hahax XD I must say that, my ex-manager is the first and the greatest manager that I ever had. She is the most caring person in my team I think. I just hope that my ex-team will still be a great team, and I can still become their friends. I just felt relieved and maybe this will be a beginning of another twist in my life. God, never stops giving me surprises in my life =)

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