So now I'm having quite long holiday, literally a week, but actually it's 10 days, as I dun have any Friday classes this semester. First of all, Happy Chinese New Year, everyone! Not very excited this time, dunno why. It was just very different this year, maybe because my grandma had passed away and my bro didn't come back to hometown. It was just, very silent this time.
Hmm, having a long holiday makes me keep thinking of several things. This is also due to no workload at all for this holiday. I just spent my days reading 'The Kite Runner' novel, watching the online courses video, watching TV, playing PC games sometimes, and online-ing most of the time. Well, in the past months, I dunno why I lost the urge to reach my dream. It's just like I really give the rest of my life to God. Maybe it's because after I read the 'Crazy Love' book and found out that this life is not about me, it's about Him. So, I feel like I have no right at all again to pursue what I want, I need to pursue what He wants. This leads me to not knowing or planning on what I should do after I graduate next year. If someone asks me what I'll do after I graduate, I just can answer with continuing my studies to accountant profession. After that? That's when people can 'checkmate' me, and fortunately no one has gone that far. I'm just losing the old 'planner' me. Now I even barely toplan on the overall week that I'll pass, I'll be very relax and only plan for maybe 3 days' ahead things. Maybe this is what it means to let God have my life, to leave the rest to Him, to not worry about anything.
In the past weeks I also felt very bored with my life. Dunno, I just wanna leave everything here and go to a new place and live a new life with new people. Or maybe a life that is devoted to God. Now I know why some people can leave everything they have to devote themselves to God. Maybe this is the trigger. I decided to continue my studies at UGM, hopefully it'll be come true.
Hmph, I told my father that I'll work started from this April, as I won't have any activity again at that time. I told him I'll help him in his company, but then he referred me to my cousin's company. His reasons were that his company won't grow very well and I'll have better chance at my cousin's company. I disagreed with his statement that his company won't grow well, every company of course can grow into a successful company, with good strategies to be applied on. But it has always been the way he restricted us to take care of his company. Maybe the thing that he'll do when he can't take care of his company is to liquidate it, not inherit it to his children.
Last week I proposed an essay competition from UGM to the head. I told her that I wanna join and she let me join and it was approved by the Managing Director. I asked JW first whether she wanted to become my partner, but seems like she wasn't really interested. Then, I asked Yulie, and she wanted to be my partner. Yesterday, the information about the national accounting olympiad were released. I do hope that I can join this competition too, so I thought that I also will propose this competition to the head. Actually, this was already rejected by the Managing Director last year when the previous head proposed it, it was because the preliminary round system. However, it's not a mistake to try it again, maybe with this new head of accounting, the MD can change his mind. If he lets me to join, I'll cancel the essay competition and join NAO. But I need one more person to fill a team of three people, maybe a junior. Let's just pray that the best thing that will be happened.
Hmm, this time it was quite fun to hangout with him, except the second time. Maybe because of our mood also, at that time, we were not having the best condition, so we ended up in silence and staring at our gadgets. But I did grateful that we could still hangout together, and share many stories of our life. He's going back to Jogja tomorrow. Really dunno when he'll come back to hometown again, but life's full of surprise, isn't it? Maybe he'll come back in this year, maybe not at all. Just pray for the best of your life, buddy =) Oh yeah, also hope you can do your best for SIMPIC at March, make your family, buddies, friends, campus and Indonesia proud, okay? =D
Haah, enough with my thoughts. Hopefully everything will go on its way and God always lead me through His ways. I do always believe that His plans are always beautiful in His time =)
