Clueless

Hufh, I dunno. My life is just getting blur and blur. I just can't decide what to do with my future. I'm totally clueless. So do my friendship with my friends. I just feel like I've left one by one. Only the closest one that still stay in my life. I dunno what's wrong with me, or with them. I dunno who to blame for this situation. Maybe I need to move to another city, to start a new life, meet new people, and stay away from this city's society. But knowing that my sis is having a hard time in her SHS life, I can't leave her alone. Hufh, I dunno what to do anymore. Please lead me God, please show me Your way...

Everything Has Changed

Hmph, still jobless till now. I really dunno whether I should stick on finding jobs or establish a new business. My days are passed with many many thoughts that I can't decide what should I do. Well, seems like my ex-colleagues do great jobs after I've resigned. They are well prepared for their big event, I guess. I'm glad that they can still do their best without me, so I can leave without guilty feeling. My ex-boss offered me to help her team on their big event twice, and I rejected her. I dunno, I just feel like I dun wanna see her and her teams for quite some time. I have this very lazy feeling every time I wonder to visit them. I dun understand also why do I feel that way, I wish to know the reason. She invited me to come on the event through Facebook. I really dunno whether I want to give my response or not. Every option of the response seems to have negative effects. If I click "going", then I will disappoint her by not showing myself on the event. If I click "maybe", then I will make her wondering. If I click "not going", absolutely she will stay far away from me I guess. So maybe I'll just leave it unresponded. Yeah, I guess my decision to resign is very right. As I never feel alive in that company and I can hardly been appreciated also. I also can't work if I become 'bad-mood' absorber. You should lead, not command your subordinates. You should say 'Let us do it', not 'I want you to do this'. You used to live in SG, but why your mindset is just like this city's people? Maybe the fact is we can't cope with each other...