Days with buddies

Had two days of meeting buddies last week. The first one is on Thursday. "Purplelicious" asked me to help her for her finance project. She fetched me at noon and we went to Cambridge Starbucks as our place to do the project. Well, it was questions, that had to be done. So we spent for about 2 hours maybe to finish the questions that we could do, the rest will be helped by her lecturer. Then, we spent the rest of our time by a super super long chat. How I loved to have such time =) Many many stories were told, and I arrived home about 7 pm at that day. 

The second day was yesterday. I had a replacement class in the morning. "Purplelicious" asked me whether we could have lunch together with Wenny last two days, and I said yes if I wouldn't have any replacement class in the afternoon. So, I took pedicab to school, to wait for Wenny and her to come. After some while, we started to leave school and went to the lunch place. Surprisingly, she could drive already. Oh man, when is my turn?== We arrived at the lunch place about 1.30 pm. We ate at Japanese restaurant called Renjiro. The food was quite good. We started to chat again and again until Suryady and Wikong came. Then, we continued again till 4.30 pm. We headed back to school because Wenny wanted to get off there. Actually, we waited for Wisely to come, and he came. We had a kinda 30 mins chat then we departed. "Purplelicious" fetched me home at 5. Well, it was a good good day I guess =) I wish I really had a day like this everyday.

Went to church this morning. Met some of my friends. As it's always, I'm happy to go to church and after-church session =) Feels like my soul replenish. Thanks God for still giving me chance to go to church =D Oh yeah, by the way, Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!!! =)

Warm hug

A talkshow that I watched today on TV, showed that a daughter and a mother, who cried without saying any word. The mother was just feeling blessed, as she have this amazing daughter in her life. Then, they hugged each other. Well, it was touching. I could barely control my emotion when I watched it. Then, another question popped up in my mind. When was the last time my parents hug me? Or, do they ever hug me? I grow in a discipline family, where I must be strong for all of my problems. Barely feel the love that my parents gave, or do they ever give their love as it should be? The ironic thing is that, maybe the first person that I hugged is my buddy, not my parents or my family members. Yes, I remember that, the last night of 'retreat' of my batch. I hugged him tightly, just expressed sorry for what I had done to him, and I cried. Then, he said," Hey, don't hug me like that, it will make me cry." At that time, I just felt that he is the best buddy in my life, and indeed he is. When we had the gathering for the last night, and one of my friends asked,"Who cried at the campfire?" Maybe only me and him. His reason to cry was he felt the warmth of my hug, and he was touched. 

Sometimes, when I am depressed, I really need a hug. But who can provide that? It's impossible to hug myself. Although it's a simple action, but it is relieving and worth a thousand words...

Unusual

Saturday, as usual, dunno what to do. Just spent today like a zombie, online-ing or watching TV. I planned to read the ebook today, but ended up with slacking around doing nothing =| Oh yeah, one of my friends in German is accepted in his university. Congratz bro!!! Proud of ya =) Then, another surprising thing is one of my buddies texted me, invite me to her brother's wedding party. Wow, I'm so honored to be invited by her =) An unusual thing just happened. Him, suddenly chat with me, hahax. Well, God sure heard my prayer. I really wanna chat with him, since I haven't heard his news these weeks. Glad to know that he's okay. Well, wanna hit the sack soon. Am not going to church tomorrow, because my sis doesn't want to go =( Maybe next week =)

Fri fri friday

The best thing on Friday is wearing batik. Dunno why, I feel good everytime I wear it =) Today's class was statistics, although the subject is quite difficult, but I feel relax when I enter the class, because the lecturer likes to share stories, from the sad ones to funny ones XD That made me feel not really pressured during the class. One of my buddies, the ex-earth god, had to return the books that he lent from my college's library. My God, he supposed to return them by himself, he could text me to ask me to return them == Who's lending the book now? Me??!! == I was kinda upset for a while when I read his message. He made me as if I were the one who lent the books. I knew why he did that, because he was afraid to meet with his crush there == Oh man, just be gentle. Finally, he wanted to go to my college to return the books. I suggested that he just waited at the basement, I would go to the library to return them. It went well, hufh. Then, he fetched me home, then he texted me to say 'thank you'. I just should think twice next time == Hmm, just spent the night by playing dota and pizza frenzy. Gonna find something to do tomorrow...

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Dull boredom

Got no class for today, the lecturer cancelled the class. Spent my morning by watching TV and solving some management accounting questions. Then, I really dunno what to do for the rest of the day. Actually I wanna read the next chapter of public sector accounting, but dunno why the file is corrupted in the G-Tab == Hmm, wanna have some time to chat with my buddies, but I'm afraid of disturbing their time =| Hufh, it's hard to pass a day without making yourself busy, such a too-much-relax life that I have now...

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The right time

Wondering this thing for these days, how God's plans never fail. And also, never come too early, yet late. They always come at the right time. How great He is =) Just like my friendship with him. I almost gave up with our friendship, but then he fixed it, even upgraded to a better one. 4 years that I had waited for his response, and finally he responded it. Other people may give up on it, but then God always plays His role in our life. Meeting the ones who are my best friends are the best plan I think. Another things also. Haaaah, I should be very grateful, really. Count the blessings, then I will find infinite blessings. God is always good =) Have been missing my buddies, how are you guys? Are you okay? Wondering when we'll have some time to chit-chat like we used to be =)

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Peaceful (?)

Hmm, started today by waking up at 6.30 to accompany my sis to church. It was quite good that we made it on time XD My sis sat with her friends, while I sat alone. Saw one of my friend, and I tweeted him just to make him find me XD But, he went home earlier because he was called. Then, we arrived home at about 9.30. It's weird, seems like today's time was spelled to pass slowly. Yeah, I felt that time passed very slow today. I really enjoyed today =) Just, a peaceful day I should say. Hmm, not only peaceful, kind of a day to relax, introspect myself. I can't really tell the feeling, but it was a kind like that. I must be very happy if I can feel like this every day =) Just thanks God for that O:)

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Busy beginning

It's just the fourth day of this semester, yet I already felt many things that I must do. Start from reading stuffs to assignments. Today, I entered the first meeting of Public Sector Accounting. The lecturer was an Indonesian female. Actually I felt that she is a good person. She likes to smile, explains slowly. But, she told too many stories, no wonder she said that we may not finish all the materials == She explained step by step, ensured us to understand the material. Alas, only first meeting, but she already assigned us with assignment == Well, it's not that hard to do it, but to understand what we found, it's another hard thing to do. Well, I really need time to read and read. Spent my night on reviewing grammar, because it will be used for business communication subject. This second year is kinda tough, really need to read to understand the lectures. Gonna help my buddy on his search for books tomorrow, hope that we can find it at the library. Hufh, kinda tired today, feel very sleepy right now. Gonna hit the bed soon, else I won't understand even a thing for tomorrow's class...

Change...

Change, it's just a word, with six letters, yet it means many many things in my life. It has been a year since the first time I entered college, but I don't really feel that I've changed. But, how about my friends? My buddies? I can a lot of changes from them. Whether a good change or bad one, but at least they've changed. Somehow, I feel sad, they are not they used to be. Yes, I can't blame them, nothing that I can blame on, it's just the conditions that required them to change. But myself? Maybe sometimes I wanna ask my friends, whether I've changed or not. People said, change often, as changes may bring you to perfection. Maybe I should start to change, of course into a good person. Hmph, what a stagnant life that I have now, while others are growing into better ones...

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Grateful gratitude

New semester has come! This time as usual I'll have 5 modules. Today's subject was business communication. The book is thick and we have to finish those 21 chaps for the course == And I really need to learn grammar again, since we have to learn about written communication. Another books are also thick, except MYOB. No wonder everyone can get A for the course, it's not that hard. Kinda excited for this new semester, and I must work hard and give the best for it =) Oh yeah, I'm also very happy today!!! I got straight A for semester 3 results! XD I can't believe that my public speaking grade was A. Hahax, I'm really grateful to God =) I couldn't achieve that without His help. Really really thanks God. I'll do my best for this semester =)

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Holiday ends

Yep,the last day of my holiday. Start new semester tomorrow!!! Kinda feel both happy and sad. The happy thing is I learn new things, the sad thing is I must wake up early like usual ._. Spent today from going to church in the morning. Felt happy because of the atmosphere =) Then I had a nap in the afternoon, as I was kinda sleepy, even until now == Hufh, my dad gonna go to many cities start from tomorrow for business purpose, and guess what? I'll substitute him at the office == I even dunno what should I do there? Just keep watching the labors and receive orders? Or another thing? It will be boring I guess, hope that I can get all books for this term tomorrow and bring some to the office. Hufh, I also wanna learn and inspect my father's bookkeeping, gonna see whether it is good or not. Learn new things means new challenges for me. Ganbatte for it!!! God please help me and bless me for this new term =) Amen...

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Back to tutor again!

Yep, I am back to tutor my queen of 'galau' friend XD The only "Purplelicious". This time is about finance, or financial management in my term. Actually I'm not that confident to teach her, since my financial management lecturer didn't teach me well == But I try to read her notes and explain back to her. Yaaah, although I had some problems, but still, she could understand. I really hope that I can make her fully understand about the subject. Gonna continue it tomorrow at night, because she has some stuffs to be finished. She said that she wanna pay me. Hmm, I dun want it, because I am not a professional one, and I like to teach her. Dunno why, it's just simple as that =) And I also get more knowledge, since I've never learnt some of them. Maybe after I become an auditor I will ask fee from her XD Just kidding. Well, gonna do my best to make her understand =) Wanna hit the bed soon, because I'll go to church tomorrow morning =)

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Quite cheerful day

Today was quite a good day for me =) Last night I poured up what I felt and shared all of them to God. God healed my wound very fast. Another miracle from the Almighty God =) I know that this will work, because I've tried it several times. Thanks Jesus for still caring and loving me until now. Wonder why I still can blogging in this hour? Yep, my bro isn't at home, he slept at his friend's house to finish their group assignment. Dunno why I wanna chat with one of Questers. Yeah, honestly I don't like to talk to him during my school times, but now, I feel comfort when I talk to him. Always talk about jobs when I chat with him. Both of us still perfect unemployed till now == Hope that both of us can find a job. Hmm, my friend said that I can see my scores for semester 3, and I tried it on the web. Since when I can log in?=O But, it was error after I logged in, just the same == Well, hope that tomorrow will be another good day to me =)

A.L.O.N.E.

I really wish today wouldn't come. I really wish I could forget today. I feel half-alive today. Only my body exists, not my soul. Feels like really alone. This family is not a 'real' family to me. Never being understood by them. Sharing stories to them? It's like finding a diamond-I myself forget when is the last time I do that. How do I start to talk? They rarely accept or even appreciate my opinion. It's not my fault if I never share to them. Being hurt too much, dunno how long I can endure it. How to do the same to them? They are my family. It's better that I live alone, because living with them is not different with living alone. They never ever care with my mentally problems. I am not a robot, which has no feelings, I am a human, who need love and care. People said that your family is the place you go home, but that doesn't work to my family. I really envy with my friends' family, theirs are the real family. Whom to talk, where to go, I don't know. I just...wanna disappear from them...

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Long holiday syndrome

Hmph, I really want my holiday to end soon, because I really hate when I myself feel alone, empty, coldness inside. This is what happened if I don't have anything to do == I just spend my day by playing online games, watching TV or reading ebook. I even almost finish reading that ebook == 10th, come faster please, I feel like I am the most unproductive person in the world now. Kinda hard to chat with my buddies, since they have started their new terms, and that means they are busy. Did random notes about "How well do you know your best friend?". It's kinda fun, wanna do more of it =) Hmph, boredom, boredom, boredom, just get out of here...

Refreshed soul

Went to church this morning, to accompany my sis who wanted to get stamp, hahax XD Thought it would be fun, but I didn't know why we came at the most right time. Today was the first Sunday of September, it meant that it's not youth one. It was mixed with the old people one == It went like Gloria one, and we both were bored and bored and...bored. The songs were slow beat, not even one song that was cheerful one == Saw many juniors and also teachers from my school. Happy to see them =) I told my sis to not come on the first Sunday of every month, or we will stuck in this situation again XD But, I really feel my soul refreshed. It is not a tired one, but fully energized =) Kinda happy Sunday.

Hmm, he has arrived at Jogja and started his new semester tomorrow. Dunno whether he received my sms or not, but once again, do ur best for this semester buddy!! See you on your next holiday =)

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Stranger

Yeah, I feel like I'm a stranger to my family. I dunno why, maybe I just can't get along with them anymore. This family rarely gives chances to express opinions, always feel that they are the most right one. Tired with them sometimes. What an irony, autocratic family in a democratic country. Seriously, they even don't know me well. My friends even know me better, especially my buddies. That's why I always feel comfortable when I talk to my buddies. When I talk to my parents, it's like talking to a judge that can judge you right or wrong. Wanna end it, but how? I also wanna live alone because of this. What's the point if you live in your own house but you act like a stranger?

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Buddy's Birthday Post~ (Wisely)

September 1st! Guess who's birthday is today? Yep, it's Wisely!!!! At last he is 19 years now. Well, I dunno whether he will get a surprise for his birthday or not. Haaah, when was the last time we met? Last 2-3 months maybe? What makes this mentalist special in my life?

Hmm, this person is quite introvert one, but since he often comes to my home to somewhat 'study', then he always tells whatever he wants. For example, when we had Math homeworks, then he would tell half an hour things before he did one question. All of you can see how effective and efficient we were at that time XD I really really know a lot of things of him after he told me many things about him. Not only that, I learnt a lot of life lessons from him. "Never give up"- yeah, I guess that's the main thing that I can learn from him. Although his life is not as good as mine, but he never ever gives up. He will try to find another solution, and try to not hang on another person. But when he needs help, then I always try to help him. Haah, I really miss when he told many stories to me, that atmosphere I mean. It was nice I think. And I also miss when he slept over at my house. Actually it was to study, but then I could not stay awake and I slept, while he read novels from my bro's cabinet XD We also used to go to church together at Sunday morning (actually to add up our Religion marks XD). Sometimes he also fetched me to hang out and discuss many things in our life. How I miss it, but seems things are changed. We are not in the same university and he has to work everyday. Maybe we seldom meet now, but still I view him as my buddy until now =) Looking forward for our meetings =)

Now, the hopes and wishes for this commander!!! Happy 19th birthday my bro, first things first is hope you can success in your studies and your career XD Also hope that you always do your best in your life. You now that you can accomplish all things no matter how hard it is =) Really wish that your relationship with her will last long long long long long long~~~ XD Oh yeah, last thing, enjoy your last 'teen' before you turn into 'ty' okay? Have a blast! =D