Hello. Nothing's get better after 3 weeks of my graduation. It's worsen I guess. I am lost. I dunno where should I step. I'm afraid of everything as I really dunno what path that I should choose. I'm quite sick of my current job as I dun have any passion in it. I wanna resign so bad. But the only problem is that we're having a very big project for the next 2 months. I've planned to resign after that big project, but then my father urged me to resign soon and find another job that suits with me. I fear that she can't bear with my selfish decision that I dunno how to tell her properly. Actually I changed my plan to resign this month if it's possible, but I feel irresponsible to do that. On the other side, I can't bear with the pressure in my current job anymore. I'm such a useless employee. I rarely give ideas in meetings. I barely make good crafts. I never like these stuffs. She told me this evening that she got a very big help for that big project. Actually this may be my chance to resign, as her job is significantly decreased. Still, I dunno how to tell her and I can't bear with this irresponsible feeling, while my father has urged me to find another job. What must I do, God? I can't see any certainty for my future...
