Has been a week since our first serious so-called-quarrel. I just feel like I'm a stupid person by starting that thing, but thanks to that also I know how serious you are in our friendship. Actually, you are not that serious anymore, and you don't even try to fix it and feels like everything is okay. You said that you understand my position, but how wrong you are my friend, you don't understand at all. I didn't know why I could feel very sad on Monday, maybe I was so stupid and naive to think that our friendship can be like me with his. Yeah, my stupid expectation. As I've told all of these things to Him, slowly but sure, I feel better each day, and try to let it go. If this is what it's supposed to be, then let it be. I just dun wanna expect anything from you anymore. You've changed. A lot. It's not the '3-years-before-you' anymore. The thing is that we just don't understand each other anymore. If someday I meet you again, I really dunno what to talk/share to you. You know, it's worse than meeting a new person. Maybe just a silence that all I can show you.
Today, I met them, and talked about this thing. Maybe what she said is right, you are the person that will completely adapt and become the person you are close with at a particular time. Seriously, maybe we dun have to meet for some time, I dunno until when. Maybe till the day I feel like this thing never happened between us. You are just lucky to have such a naive friend, my buddy =) I still see you as one of my buddies, but now it's not the used-to-be buddy again. Will always pray for your life, buddy =)
The Bible said that we shouldn't be discouraged, but now how I feel the deepest discourage about our friendship. God, is the One who can change both of our hearts.
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