I really dunno what did happen to you these days or what's gotten into you. In all of a sudden you're just like a person with autism, dun want to speak even a word. Three of us can't find the answer of your condition until now. He is going to another city today and you dun even say "Safe flight" to him. What do you want actually? You keep on shutting your mouth and you hope that we can know what you want? You think we're mind readers? You're supposed to be a mature person now, but you act like a 5-year-old child. You think we deserve something like this from you? I will strongly disagree with that. I should be the person who act like you if I want to. I wonder whether there are any moms like you. Do you even know how my life is? Do you even care my problems? Where are your support when I'll have a competition or test? Don't be curious on why I suddenly become this quiet person in this "home". It's you who never bother about my life and what I've been through. It's a pain to love you, I really dunno how to bear with it. You know what? I've been trying on never share my problems with you and him, it's because I know that both of you also have many problems in your life, but seems like you never know about that and you just keep on nagging and nagging without even try to understand me. This is why I always want to live separately from you. I dare to bet that when it happens, you won't call me every day like you do every day with him. Only because that you are the one that I should respect, protect and take care of, I try to struggle all of these times. I dare to bet if you read this and understand it, you won't apologize or change yourself. It's because you never do that.
God, I just hope that all things can go back to where they used to be. Please strengthen me, God. This too shall be passed...
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