Hmm, dunno why now I feel that loneliness is my friend now, as it was my biggest enemy a year ago. I feel comfortable when I'm lonely. And you know what? Suddenly I lost my interest of hanging out with Quest. Why? I also dunno the answer. I just feel like it's better to hang out with a few people only than in a big group. I just feel more comfortable with that way.
Another thing is that I really lost my style in communicating with my buddies. I lost the way we talk with laughs. Now, when I chat with them, it feels like almost all that I said are serious matters. The frequency is also diminishing, maybe once a month. Or maybe never in a month. I just wonder whether they will ever find me or chat with me first, as I am always become the first one who find them. Yeah, slowly but sure, I find that being alone is a comfortable thing again. I dunno this is good or not. Maybe it's just today that I feel that way...
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