Monday, January 26, 2015

Trembling Fear

I dunno why I feel this kind of fear after the dream that I had this morning. I even dunno when was the last time I feel this kind of fear. Well, the dream was like this. My buddy, E, sat beside me and we were in a kind of a religion ritual, with some of our friends. I was happy to meet him, until he asked me a question, which made me anxious and afraid every time I try to remember this dream. He asked me, "When will you gonna be baptized?". I forgot I answered him or not, but I bet I was really confused to answer that question. Then, he said again, "Yeah, my mom asked me how about you are still not be baptized." I thought I kept silent after he said that. After that, we were given incense to pray to a statue, he and I took the incense that we put it at a short wall (maybe) which was in front of us. Then, he stood up and he went to in front of that statue and danced (I really had no idea what dance was that and why was he dancing). I just sat and saw him dancing. After that, we were in a different place again, and he sat beside me. He continued about the steps to be baptized and he said,"So, how will you gonna be baptized? By doing it secretly?". Again, I forgot what I replied to him. We were in different place again and this time we stood, and I asked him something but then the dream was over. When I woke up, I was feeling fear and anxious. I couldn't stay calm until I prayed to Him. I really want to know what is the meaning of that dream. Does God urge me to be baptized? Or just a reminder to me? But I can't keep calm, and every time I see his name or photo, I'll remember the dream and again, will feel fear and anxious. I really wanna share this to him, but he is still busy with his thesis. Maybe I just need to keep praying to Him, and everything's gonna be okay. Amen!

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