Worst Phase of My Life?

Hmph, how I miss my school's life, where everything seemed to be going well, where everything was structured. There were clear things to do, clear directions to follow. How well my life was back then. I could achieve things well, thanks to those structured things. But now, I might say that this is the worst phase of my life. Well, in college, you can do what you want instead of studying. Now, I dunno what do I wanna do instead of studying. I wanna join an organization, but found none that excites me. I wanna do another activities, maybe some sports, but then transportation becomes the big issue. Hufh, I need something instead of studying, reading those e-books. Maybe what my lecturer said is right, I am in the wrong country. But precisely, wrong city. I'm very sick of this city already. This city is very stagnant I might say, barely find new things here. The society is also not that gives good influence on me.

Compare to what my buddies/friends do now after we are in colleges/universities, oh man, I am nothing. As big as 0. They join organizations, work, do another activities that interest them. While I am just studying, reading, online-ing, slacking around. Hufh, I am confused on how should I fix this. There is no such theories or guidelines to fix this. Plan to fix this is easy, but the implementation? Hmph, I can be very depressed because of these things. Oh God, please guide me to how it should be...

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