I really wish today wouldn't come. I really wish I could forget today. I feel half-alive today. Only my body exists, not my soul. Feels like really alone. This family is not a 'real' family to me. Never being understood by them. Sharing stories to them? It's like finding a diamond-I myself forget when is the last time I do that. How do I start to talk? They rarely accept or even appreciate my opinion. It's not my fault if I never share to them. Being hurt too much, dunno how long I can endure it. How to do the same to them? They are my family. It's better that I live alone, because living with them is not different with living alone. They never ever care with my mentally problems. I am not a robot, which has no feelings, I am a human, who need love and care. People said that your family is the place you go home, but that doesn't work to my family. I really envy with my friends' family, theirs are the real family. Whom to talk, where to go, I don't know. I just...wanna disappear from them...
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i do think you need to talk though, but that's all back to you to deal with it...
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